I had two auditions last week. Unfortunately, I couldn't make it to one of them becuase it was in Cambridge, over an hours drive by car, but the fact is in one week, I had two auditions and my agent just started to use my new headshots last week. Very promising. Now, I just have to deliver when I get to the auditions...that's on me. But, so far the shots seem to be doing their job and for that I am quite relieved.
The audition I was able to get to was for a commercial that would be shooting in Buenos Aires...how cool is that?! The callbacks are next week and I haven't heard back yet, so I don't think I booked it, but all the same, it feels great to be out there auditioning again!
I'd be lying if I didn't say that I am not exactly looking forward to having to be "audition ready" all the time as it is normal to only get one days notice for an audition. There's a weird sort of pressure that comes with feeling like you have to look good and be "on" on certain days. Also, since I've only been to the gym twice since my vacation, I am a wee bit nervous. But, at the same time, I know myself...it takes me a long time to get back into a routine but once I do I stick to it because I've gotten back into it in my own time.
Well, please do wish me luck folks as I head back into the world of a professional auditioner! Here's hoping I book a few jobs while I'm at it! Alright, a lot of jobs...just putting it out there!
I look forward to sharing my new headshots soon, so stay posted. I'd love to hear what you think.
Have a great week!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Rest & Relaxation
Just in time to help me gear up for what I'm hoping will be a very busy time (what with all the auditioning I'm going to be doing AND booking jobs of course! Huh, how do you like that positive thinking!) I was able to go on vacation to Jamaica for some good R&R! Sure we weathered a Tropical Storm while we were there, but nothing a little Red Stripe and my new favourite cocktail...Creme de Cocoa and milk on ice ...couldn't help us cope with!
Here are some pics I thought I'd share with you:
Here are some pics I thought I'd share with you:
An awakening
Really good things are happening. In fact, things I have planned on making happen, are happening and it feels great! It feels like the balance between the life I've lead and the life I am working towards is finally slowly beginning to shift in my favour. I feel an awakening in the parts of me that feel joy, hope, excitement and passion! They are beginning to stir and feel hopeful again!
I'd taken the summer to focus on some things I felt were necessary to help me to be more successful in the long run, i.e. continuing with my training, getting into shape, etc. (thus, explaining my absence on the blog...nothing really noteworthy to blog about). Then, I had planned on working towards getting new headshots at the end of the summer and sending them out to agents along with a new demo reel. A lot of work had to be done. Well, quite to my surprise, a promising lead that I mentioned to you a while back, has come through and I am now with agent!
I have also just got my new headshots done by the wonderful Ian Brown and I can't wait to share them with you. I am really quite pleased and hope my agent is too!
I feel like all my work in the past 10 months has paid off and has lead me to this moment. I set goals for myself and I find myself reaching them and it feels quite satisfying. I have found an agent & agency who believe in me, who know what they are doing and want to work to help my career. I have the utmost trust in them and this relationship. I feel like things are now possible. I am starting a new chapter in my life; one that is similar to a few I've ventured through before, but this time it feels different; I feel different. I feel ready and confident; willing and able. I know what I want and I plan to rise to the challenge. I feel like I've been given another chance and I am so greatful. Makes me feel like I'm not just imagining that this is what I'm meant to do; it is what I'm meant to do...yay!
As I write this, I feel joyous and I hope to be able to share the journey with you now that things may actually start happening... the ever exciting journey of wading through auditions...ahhh, ain't life grand! Thanks so much for all your support so far!
I'd taken the summer to focus on some things I felt were necessary to help me to be more successful in the long run, i.e. continuing with my training, getting into shape, etc. (thus, explaining my absence on the blog...nothing really noteworthy to blog about). Then, I had planned on working towards getting new headshots at the end of the summer and sending them out to agents along with a new demo reel. A lot of work had to be done. Well, quite to my surprise, a promising lead that I mentioned to you a while back, has come through and I am now with agent!
I have also just got my new headshots done by the wonderful Ian Brown and I can't wait to share them with you. I am really quite pleased and hope my agent is too!
I feel like all my work in the past 10 months has paid off and has lead me to this moment. I set goals for myself and I find myself reaching them and it feels quite satisfying. I have found an agent & agency who believe in me, who know what they are doing and want to work to help my career. I have the utmost trust in them and this relationship. I feel like things are now possible. I am starting a new chapter in my life; one that is similar to a few I've ventured through before, but this time it feels different; I feel different. I feel ready and confident; willing and able. I know what I want and I plan to rise to the challenge. I feel like I've been given another chance and I am so greatful. Makes me feel like I'm not just imagining that this is what I'm meant to do; it is what I'm meant to do...yay!
As I write this, I feel joyous and I hope to be able to share the journey with you now that things may actually start happening... the ever exciting journey of wading through auditions...ahhh, ain't life grand! Thanks so much for all your support so far!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
A Sound Idea or Procrastination?
Here is what my mind has been doing to me lately...what you're about to read are the inner thoughts of yours truly...
"You know, before you tackle really trying to get an agent, you really should lose those last 10lbs and drop those last 2 dress sizes. That way you are a way more marketable product. Plus, that will give me more time to really work on my acting in front of the camera. And besides, I have so much more work to do in my voice class. So, yeah, okay, I will give it 2 more months...no 3...and then I will be in much better shape. Okay, but to get in better shape, you really have to focus on that...stop snacking so often...I really gotta hit that cardio harder! Should I just start having salads for dinner? Go to bed earlier for goodness sake! Okay, so get into better shape...work on my acting stuff...then get headshots in my new better, badder self and then ...the agents will be more likely to wanna see me. If they don't think I'm too old by then. Am I just going to make this harder on me by waiting even longer? I'm already older than a lot of the other women out there auditioning. But, hey, isn't it better to take my time and do this properly? Better to take the time to prepare myself for what I want to come then to stick my neck out too soon and fall flat on my face...yeah, 2 or 3 more months of real, driven, focus! And then...go time!"
So, I ask you...sound, rational idea? Or just another form of procrastination? Now, you might think I'm being sarcastic...like the answer is obvious. And though, I believe, I know where most of you will fall on this, I am honestly asking. This is where I am at right now and it does seem to make some sense to me. What do you think?
"You know, before you tackle really trying to get an agent, you really should lose those last 10lbs and drop those last 2 dress sizes. That way you are a way more marketable product. Plus, that will give me more time to really work on my acting in front of the camera. And besides, I have so much more work to do in my voice class. So, yeah, okay, I will give it 2 more months...no 3...and then I will be in much better shape. Okay, but to get in better shape, you really have to focus on that...stop snacking so often...I really gotta hit that cardio harder! Should I just start having salads for dinner? Go to bed earlier for goodness sake! Okay, so get into better shape...work on my acting stuff...then get headshots in my new better, badder self and then ...the agents will be more likely to wanna see me. If they don't think I'm too old by then. Am I just going to make this harder on me by waiting even longer? I'm already older than a lot of the other women out there auditioning. But, hey, isn't it better to take my time and do this properly? Better to take the time to prepare myself for what I want to come then to stick my neck out too soon and fall flat on my face...yeah, 2 or 3 more months of real, driven, focus! And then...go time!"
So, I ask you...sound, rational idea? Or just another form of procrastination? Now, you might think I'm being sarcastic...like the answer is obvious. And though, I believe, I know where most of you will fall on this, I am honestly asking. This is where I am at right now and it does seem to make some sense to me. What do you think?
My Practice Challenge Update
As some of you may recall, I issued myself a challenge in March and about 2 weeks later I updated you on that challenge which at that point was going along nicely. Well, during the course of the challenge which ended the day before my last voice class a few weeks ago, I found I stuck to practicing during the week but then it seemed to fall apart on the weekends...mostly because I would almost completely forget about it until it was time for sleep...whether I liked it or not. In all honesty, though I intended to improve on this, I was okay with it because it was all still so new!
Well, regretfully, now that I am no longer in my voice class, my voice practices have kinda fallen to the wayside. And, by kinda, I mean they have. I definitely still do them on the one day a week I have my acting class, cause, well, it would be kinda silly to not do it on that day at least. However, I am not impressed that the reason I've stopped practising as often is that just as in weekends past, I have completely forgotten about it until too late...if at all! I have forgiven myself for this, determined to just start up again as of today. My fear, however, is that I will just forget again and eventaully stop completely.
I am trying to come up with a way to help me remember. Something to inspire me to do it every day. So far, I've come up with the idea of creating a pretty sign that says...Practice!...huh? clever, right? What do you guys do to help keep you inspired to do that daily task you have to do, in a way that doesn't make you feel bad but instead inspires you to remember the benefits of the reason you are doing the task in the first place?
I would love to hear your thoughts?
Well, regretfully, now that I am no longer in my voice class, my voice practices have kinda fallen to the wayside. And, by kinda, I mean they have. I definitely still do them on the one day a week I have my acting class, cause, well, it would be kinda silly to not do it on that day at least. However, I am not impressed that the reason I've stopped practising as often is that just as in weekends past, I have completely forgotten about it until too late...if at all! I have forgiven myself for this, determined to just start up again as of today. My fear, however, is that I will just forget again and eventaully stop completely.
I am trying to come up with a way to help me remember. Something to inspire me to do it every day. So far, I've come up with the idea of creating a pretty sign that says...Practice!...huh? clever, right? What do you guys do to help keep you inspired to do that daily task you have to do, in a way that doesn't make you feel bad but instead inspires you to remember the benefits of the reason you are doing the task in the first place?
I would love to hear your thoughts?
Monday, April 26, 2010
Where the heck have I been?!
I feel like since I started with my Voice class approximately 8 weeks ago, I have been in a complete haze! Well, perhaps not a complete encompassing haze, but I've definitely gotten very introspective and was feeling like I wasn't quite able to share what I've been learning. Mostly, because I've tried and well, I couldn't quite put it into words that made any sense. I've learned some very valuable things about myself. Things that are definitely getting in my way as an actor and though it hasn't been easy work, I look forward to continuing on with it...I have to if I'm ever going to get out of my own damn way! I will share the main thing that I have learned though...that is what this blog is about after all!
I have learned that I have become quite a closed person. Let me explain. You know those every day exchanges in our lives...ordering coffee, holding the door open for someone, etc? When is the last time you've actually taken the time to take that other person in? To actually have a real exchange with someone? Why bother you ask? Well, doing this...to try and actually have real exchange with people, even in seemingly mundane moments...is part of my Voice class practice. And, I have learned that I rarely, if ever, do this! I have become so conditioned to float through life that I am out of practice when it comes to connecting with people.
I can be very sensitive to other peoples "stuff." And sometimes, its too hard to really take somebody else in because you also take in some of their "stuff" inviting in the ability to feel the pain that other people sometimes feel and that's hard. Of course, you also open yourslf to the possibility of feeling other people's joy, but the point is that you become open and vulnerable. Scary, right? But, great assets to have as an actor! In fact, downright essential to an actor! And, so this has become my main focus...trying to find moments to really engage in every day encounters. I'm not talking about trying to get to know someone's life story in the time it takes to order a tall vanilla latte from them, but just to actually make eye contact, to not just go through the motions but to actually listen to the other person! In trying to do this, it has felt like I have been taking the time to pause and savour...I'm not just rushing through my day, I'm living it...even the seemingly meaningless moments. And, actually, I have been having some pretty neat encounters. Nothing life altering...but real moments shared between two people on this earth can only ever be a good thing, whether the exchange is joyful or not.
My last voice class was last week and I begin my acting class again this week for 6 weeks. I have decided to alternate sessions between the two classes as one totally informs the other and I'm really excited about that.
What has been hard to learn is that I am sooo out of practice that I really do need this training all over again before I feel like I will be ready to call myself an actor again. I know it's not all lost of course, but at least with this new medium (for me) of acting for the camera, there is a lot for me to learn and I'm a little late in the game, but hey, I'm in it...or at least, I'm holding my hand out into the ring, hoping someone will tag me in soon! Anybody??
I have learned that I have become quite a closed person. Let me explain. You know those every day exchanges in our lives...ordering coffee, holding the door open for someone, etc? When is the last time you've actually taken the time to take that other person in? To actually have a real exchange with someone? Why bother you ask? Well, doing this...to try and actually have real exchange with people, even in seemingly mundane moments...is part of my Voice class practice. And, I have learned that I rarely, if ever, do this! I have become so conditioned to float through life that I am out of practice when it comes to connecting with people.
I can be very sensitive to other peoples "stuff." And sometimes, its too hard to really take somebody else in because you also take in some of their "stuff" inviting in the ability to feel the pain that other people sometimes feel and that's hard. Of course, you also open yourslf to the possibility of feeling other people's joy, but the point is that you become open and vulnerable. Scary, right? But, great assets to have as an actor! In fact, downright essential to an actor! And, so this has become my main focus...trying to find moments to really engage in every day encounters. I'm not talking about trying to get to know someone's life story in the time it takes to order a tall vanilla latte from them, but just to actually make eye contact, to not just go through the motions but to actually listen to the other person! In trying to do this, it has felt like I have been taking the time to pause and savour...I'm not just rushing through my day, I'm living it...even the seemingly meaningless moments. And, actually, I have been having some pretty neat encounters. Nothing life altering...but real moments shared between two people on this earth can only ever be a good thing, whether the exchange is joyful or not.
My last voice class was last week and I begin my acting class again this week for 6 weeks. I have decided to alternate sessions between the two classes as one totally informs the other and I'm really excited about that.
What has been hard to learn is that I am sooo out of practice that I really do need this training all over again before I feel like I will be ready to call myself an actor again. I know it's not all lost of course, but at least with this new medium (for me) of acting for the camera, there is a lot for me to learn and I'm a little late in the game, but hey, I'm in it...or at least, I'm holding my hand out into the ring, hoping someone will tag me in soon! Anybody??
Monday, April 5, 2010
Some Validation
Some fun news...I auditioned for a student film a few weeks ago and I got the part! Which is exciting because I felt really good about the audition in that I felt like I applied the new technique I've been learning in class and at the audition I felt like I took my time and I didn't rush through it. So, it feels really good to have gotten cast when the audition felt good.
Especially, because I really want to get as much practice time in front of a camera as possible. Amazing how a little machine in front of your face can change your comfort level! I definitely need to get more comfortable in front of a camera! So, look for me at a Humber film class near you!
Especially, because I really want to get as much practice time in front of a camera as possible. Amazing how a little machine in front of your face can change your comfort level! I definitely need to get more comfortable in front of a camera! So, look for me at a Humber film class near you!
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